I struggle between being in my inner world and performing for the outer world. Of course both worlds are important, but the addiction of social media and thinking that I need to know every single person’s opinion on this planet is slowly rotting my brain. It’s hard not to go on there to see someone explain all the loose ends that The Duffer Bros missed in Stranger Things Season 5, or whether Trump who has taken over Venezuela, has decided to invade and take over more countries.
Of course, being in the outer world means reconnecting with other people in my social circles. We’ve had a busy week last week, where we’ve been on many outings around Auckland and catching up with family.
One of the highlights was going to Weta Workshop at Sky City. We didn’t even know it was there, and it was incredible! So much art and creativity, and we got to interact, touch, listen and learn about how they create animatronics, models, props and more!
Being in there sparked some interest and excitement about art and creativity for me again, which was really nice, since I haven’t been feeling it for a while.
What I realised is I’ve been crowding my brain with too many external things. TikTok is the worst, followed by the impending doom of seeing what’s happening in the world via YouTube. None of these have been doing me any good. Even “listening” to these while working isn’t good for me brain as it stops me connecting to who I am, my diabetes comics and my world as a series of comics and stops all creativity in it’s incubation period. It’s letting go of what I thought I needed. Covid was part of that. You couldn’t help but doom scroll everything because of how scary we thought things were going to get, and because of boredom.